I am not sure where I was but it seemed like a cafeteria with red and burnt orange brick, like at the Beaumont Civic Center where we would have our assemblies. I saw across the street your Tio Moy and Tio Josh going to a store where they saw News Crew cameras, they wanted to go talk to them about suicide and how it affects everyone.
Then I saw Gabby in the cafeteria where she was crying but I couldn't understand why? I lowered my vision to my right a bit and I saw you with a purplish T-shirt and your black glasses, I was so excited. You were alive and well and I was not living a nightmare, so I called for you several times but you couldn't hear me. You kept walking away and kept screaming your name but you wouldn't turn around, then I woke up. My alarm had woken me up cause it was time to go to the gym. I got dressed and I went to your room as I do everyday, paused at the door for a second hoping to see you in your bed passed out. I opened and I started crying, cause all I saw was an empty bed with your stuffed animals and your phone and portrait. I knew I was living the nightmare!!
I walked out crying and went to your restroom and left you a note like I do everyday, wishing you a good day and to call me if you need me.
I am so torn baby, broken, lost, damaged, fragile, sensitive, emotional and tired.
Love you mamasita!!!!!
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