Wrong?

Where did I go wrong? Did I do or cause this? Could I have prevented this? Why my baby girl? She absolutely didn't deserve this! What if I would have listened more? What if I hadn't left to go to work out of state? What if I made this happened because I didn't understand what this sickness is? I am so wrong for everyone, all I do is hurt people. I don't do it on purpose, I let everyone down, was that it? Did I let you down baby girl? I told you when you were born that I was going to be the best daddy in the world and was going to protect you from everything and I didn't! I would have given my life for you, I still would if it brought you back without this stupid fucking disease. I would gladly trade my life for you and your brothers, no questions asked. I am so wrong on this planet. I don't know how to function, no one understands that I am not choosing to feel this way, the amount of LOVE I HAVE for you is the amount of GRIEF I feel for your absence. All I ever wanted when I was growing up was a family of my own and take care of my kids and be the best daddy that I could possibly be, maybe I messed up and am not the best dad or father. I thought I knew what I was doing, I failed miserably. I'm sorry it costed you your life baby girl.