One of many bad days to come

You know as I walk through the halls of my work building, people ask, hey how are you? My automatic response is, "I'm okay" or "I'm fine" looking at them straight in their eyes knowing damn well I am really dying inside. I don't know how to live on, or enjoy life after losing you, I don't know if I am strong enough to continue surviving because that is all I'm doing, surviving. I know that I have to be here for my family, they need me and cannot survive another loss of life. If there was no one else in my family, I would gladly join you baby girl without hesitation. I miss you so much every single second of everyday, I see you in pictures on my phone, my computer and my walls at home. It is not getting easier, I get notifications on my phone for text messages, messenger on FB & IG and rush to see if it is you but it's not 😭😭😭😩😨. My nightmare continues. This hurts really really bad.