Left Alone

In the very beginning everyone was very sorry, very understanding, very sympathetic, very empathetic, now everyone can give two shits about how my life is destroyed. I will never be the same man even if I wanted too or tried, I can't move forward without you baby girl. I was supposed to see you grow old, experience all the things from graduating high school to falling in and out of love to getting married and having kids and living your career and travel the world but I am here alone with my thoughts and cry, alone in my head because no one understands what I feel. I can only dream of what you would be doing, it is so heartbreaking when someone talks about their child or children with such pride and love, all I can do is stay in my head and put on a fake smile for them because inside I'm dying because I can't do that with you, I can't have all of those new memories we should be having. Instead I'm here heartbroken, crying everyday with no end in sight of when this living nightmare will end. I'm in 2 groups and see a therapist, I hear everyone's thoughts, feelings and stories and we can all relate that we are ALONE in this journey, no one that has not lost a child can ever understand. You were my little personality twin, you did things I did, you liked things I did, you laughed at the jokes I told and above all you loved being with me now I'm left alone with my memories and thoughts.